Free Websites at Nation2.com
Download or Read Moments of Clarity: Voices from t
Download or Read Moments of Clarity: Voices from t

Read online or Download Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery (Full PDF ebook with essay, research paper)
by Christopher Kennedy Lawford


Product Details

ISBN-13:
9780061456220
Publisher:
HarperCollins Publishers
Publication date:
02/09/2010
Pages:
265
Sales rank:
194,306
Product dimensions:
8.08(w) x 5.34(h) x 0.73(d)

Overview

 

In his New York Times bestselling memoir, Symptoms of Withdrawal, Christopher Kennedy Lawford chronicled his deep descent into near-fatal drug and alcohol addiction, and his subsequent hard-won journey back to sobriety, which he has maintained for more than twenty years. The overwhelming response his book received impressed upon Lawford the number of people struggling to find their own way back from addiction and the need to share their stories. The histories gathered here are the recollections of lives snatched back from the brink of a precipice so wide and deep it threatened to engulf them.

Moments of Clarity includes stories from men and women, young and old, across all barriers of celebrity, color, and class. Represented in these pages are the singer and the actress, the writer and the anchorman, the man from the movie screen and the woman who lives down the street. This book brings together a myriad of different moments, all with the common understanding of where these men and women have been and where they must go. As they bravely share their stories, they shed light not only on their own experiences but also on the journey we all take as human beings who are trying to make sense of our world.

 

Related Subjects

  • ">Actors & Actresses - Biography
  • ">Addicts & Alcoholics - Biography

    Read an Excerpt

    Moments of Clarity

    Chapter One

    Jim Vance

    Jim described himself this way: "I'm a cocaine addict, a father, a husband, a man trying to make a difference in the world." Jim also anchors the nightly news at WRC-TV in Washington, DC, where he's worked since 1969. He was one of the first people to break the color barrier on TV, and he's earned seventeen Emmys and a spot in the National Association of Black Journalists Hall of Fame. He's also one of the stalwarts of the DC recovery community. A couple of things stand out to me about his story: his humor in telling it, and the way he feels most ashamed when he's being recognized for his success. That sense of being a fraud is so common among addicts.

    I haven't known hopelessness since 1987, but I remember very well what it felt like. I had a total, complete, full conviction that I was going to die. I did not believe that I had a chance at getting a decent life. I knew I was going to die, and not just die, but die a miserable death. I had decided that if I could get any "good" out of this misery, it would be that I died more miserable than my father. My father died in 1951. I was nine years old. He was thirty-eight. He died of cirrhosis and DTs. I don't know a worse way to die than DTs. Jesus, what agony. But my condition in April 1987 was that I'll find a way to die worse than he did.

    I think that speaks to the hopeless state of mind that I was in. I didn't want to die, but if I was going to die, then let me die even worse off than my father was. What kind of insanity is that? That, my friend, pretty much defines hopelessness.

    I'm a broadcastjournalist and I had been the anchor at the NBC station in Washington, DC, since 1972. In 1987, in August, somehow or other I was still hanging on, but I had been missing in action for two days again. I was down in Southeast DC, where people were living hard lives, and still are. There was a public housing complex that had been abandoned or determined to be shut down—huge, as most of them were, from an urban renewal program in '62. In one of the buildings, there were two apartments that were still occupied. There were no utilities: no water, no electricity, no telephone, no anything. There were some mattresses on the floor. And for two days, I was in one of those apartments, desperately trying to get one more hit off the pipe. I'm in that apartment, I didn't have any clothes on, couldn't get an erection, and couldn't get high. I don't know how that is for most normal people, but for this colored boy, that was as low as he could get. You couldn't get your dick up and you couldn't get high. What is left?

    I finally got out of there at some point. I didn't have a car because my car had been repossessed. I went back to where Kathy, who later became my wife, was living and I got cleaned up. She had nothing to say, because by that time, there was nothing else to say. There comes a point when silence becomes deafening and cruel. I mean, silence can cut like a knife.

    I went to work and got through it, I don't know how. I have some pictures from back then, and I'm not sure why they allowed me to go on the air. Cheeks sunken in, eyes way back in the sockets, dark circles around the eyes because I hadn't slept in probably three days. My teeth were falling out. Literally falling out, because my gums were deteriorating and the bone under the gums was deteriorating. I had to talk in a certain kind of way just to keep my teeth in my head.

    On a Thursday night, I did the six o'clock show and I left work at seven o'clock. Richard, who worked at the station, had loaned me his car. I was supposed to turn left to go home but I turned right. I drove around for a couple of hours, stopping every now and again at some phone booth, trying to get somebody to get me something. I finally got a guy in another part of Southeast Washington. I went to his place and got an eight balland fired it up. Didn't even pay him, just smoked it right there. When the ball was smoked up, at this point I was geeking. You got to get more. You can't be still, you're bouncing around, kind of like when people want to speed. Geeking was the term at that time, and I was geeking.

    I told the guy, and he said he had more but he wouldn't give me any more without seeing some cash. I said, "Let me go over to the money machine." I walked out of the apartment and I left the keys to Richard's car because I was just going to walk over to the bank right across the street. But I hailed a cab. As it pulled out from the curb, I saw the guy running out of the house. He had a pistol in his hand, and he ran this way and ran that way looking for me. I got down in the cab, and the guy was still running around when we turned the corner. Oh, he was pissed off.

    I got home and got Kathy to pay the cab. She went to bed. I went downstairs, got the shotgun, took Kathy's car, and went to Great Falls Park. The Potomac River runs through it, and there's a serious drop that creates some big rapids. The Olympic kayaking team practices at Great Falls. I was upstream, where you don't have the roar of the river as it drops off the precipice. It's more brooklike, more tranquil, but on that night it was deafening where it should have been melodic and soothing. Deafening and discordant. Jagged and unnerving. It was a violent noise that didn't really exist. My, it was horrible!

    Moments of Clarity. Copyright © by Christopher Lawford. Reprinted by permission of HarperCollins Publishers, Inc. All rights reserved. Available now wherever books are sold.

     



    where can i download Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery free ebook pdf kindle reader online textbook epub electronic summary of the book Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery full ebook review report by amazon ebay collections for android or mobile Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery for iphone, ipad txt format complete version, file with page numbers theory, art, torrent You can also buy order purchase Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery theme Kindle Edition design with Audio Multimedia CD Video Hardcover principles New or used, Mass market paperback, basic cheap handbook Audiobook price quotes, adobe converter, app, modern information series, international database, public search and file services. Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery questions tutorial full characters story with analysis guide dummies including all chapters gratis, sparknotes author, part free ebook pdf kindle reader online textbook epub electronic summary of the book Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery full ebook review report by amazon ebay collections for android or mobile Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery for iphone, ipad txt format complete version, file with page numbers theory, art, torrent You can also buy order purchase Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery theme Kindle Edition design with Audio Multimedia CD Video Hardcover principles New or used, Mass market paperback, basic cheap handbook Audiobook price quotes, adobe converter, app, modern information series, international database, public search and file services. Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery questions tutorial full characters story with analysis guide dummies including all chapters gratis, sparknotes author, part introduction. Learning Research paper about Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery essay history library store. Someone write my essay paper type manual practical, hindi, urdu, French and English, german and Australian languages: supported by spain and italian. Study basics work and materials with rules trilogy, diaries integrated literature. introduction. Learning Research paper about Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery essay history library store. Someone write my essay paper type manual practical, hindi, urdu, French and English, german and Australian languages: supported by spain and italian. Study basics work free ebook pdf kindle reader online textbook epub electronic summary of the book Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery full ebook review report by amazon ebay collections for android or mobile Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery for iphone, ipad txt format complete version, file with page numbers theory, art, torrent You can also buy order purchase Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery theme Kindle Edition design with Audio Multimedia CD Video Hardcover principles New or used, Mass market paperback, basic cheap handbook Audiobook price quotes, adobe converter, app, modern information series, international database, public search and file services. Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery questions tutorial full characters story with analysis guide dummies including all chapters gratis, sparknotes author, part introduction. Learning Research paper about Moments of Clarity: Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery essay history library store. Someone write my essay paper type manual practical, hindi, urdu, French and English, german and Australian languages: supported by spain and italian. Study basics work and materials with rules trilogy, diaries integrated literature. and materials with rules trilogy, diaries integrated literature.

    Resource Posts Archives - Jacque Watkins

    Apr 13, 2016 - Right click here and save-as, two prequel novellas, to download this podcast episode.. we are prone to put connection as a higher priority than the voice of God. “These devastating moments in our lives can be redeeming.the hard. But a dangerous line is crossed anytime we look to a person to. I'm a recovering [.] .

    The book of floating - Satori Float Spa

    Portions of the Introduction first appeared in The Village Voice, July 13, 1982.. TWENTY-ONE Floating Free from Habits and Addictions 192. Floating Away front Depression,. to speed their recovery from the stress of peak output, and virtually to. moments of creative illumination, insight, until she or revelation have occurred.

    333333 23135851162 the 13151942776 of 12997637966

    Read or Download AP? Biology Crash Course Book + Online (eBook). member 280827841 details 280009597 line 277705910 terms 277546019. download 220523502 h 219516023 him 219190105 without 218945655 per. url 100886343 front 100868970 statement 100765188 update 100637505 parts. spring 64753514 foundation 64649558 answer 64600528 voice 64596001 eg .

    : Free ebook sample of "Revelation - Unveiling The Mask" by Precious.

    From the sound of Trevon's voice, I imagined him to be a tall, dark-skinned, sexy. With the exception of three men, every man that I ever dated or married was either a drug addict in recovery or had. life standing in front of a person who is irrational and addicted to crack and trying. For me, this was my moment of clarity.

    Weekend Resources | Desire Spiritual Growth

    Mar 12, 2010 - Now I encourage you to download and read the remaining eight pages of The Weight of Glory.. With gripping clarity, Read or Download Mystery in the Sand (The Boxcar Children Series #16) ebook online he opens the Book of Ruth chapter by chapter. He puts enough expression into his voice to avoid sounding mechanical. Study Methods [Confession From a Recovering Methods Addict].

    Monday Books Theodore Dalrymple LIFE AT THE BOTTOM - CnQzU

    drug addicts and alcoholics, career criminals and sex offenders, the mentally disturbed and. 'Dalrymple's clarity of thought, precision of expression and constant, terrible. dispatches from the frontline a tone and a quality entirely their own. their. waiting for the murderous Securitate to knock on the door at any moment.

    "arthur t. jersild" | eBook search results | Kobo

    Child Development And The Curriculum ebook by Arthur T. Jersild. Download. Moments of Clarity - Voices from the Front Lines of Addiction and Recovery  Read or Download Big Nate: Game On! (eBook) online free pdf.

    The Science Of Deliberate Creation - Abraham-Hicks

    On line — . for information at the front desks.or studying. Your only power to create your life is in this moment, Read/Download Hunting Lila (Lila Series) ebook free pdf and the Abraham-Hicks. you will repeatedly hear that enthused inner "voice" reminding you, "I knew. the first time understand exactly what the addiction is, and the simple process.

    047: How Writing Can Heal Trauma, Abuse and Emotional Pain with.

    Mar 20, 2015 - Podcast: Play in new window | Download. and alcohol addiction, and overwhelming feelings of shame and low self confidence.. How EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing) can help you heal and recover from trauma.. for me, my talking voice is very different from my writing voice Download or Read Erotica: Her Birthday Party ebook free pdf.

    Journey with Parkinson's | A blog for Parkinson's education, research.

    I am pleased to provide “A Parkinson's Reading Companion” as an eBook in 3. /z/14jY – You can download it as a PDF or eBook (there is no charge, $0.00).. You keep putting one foot in front of the other and then one day you look. “Beware of Destination Addiction – a preoccupation with the idea that .